Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Pro-God


Our culture uses a lot of funny words.  Words are powerful things.  I think back to a quote from Harry Potter, “Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it,” I am amazed at how powerful and true this lesson is for young children to learn.  It is also very important for adults, too.


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As a kid, I remember learning the lesson that “if you can’t something nice, don’t say nothing at all” (Bambi).


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While there’s some goodness in that (like, don’t gossip), this is not a biblical concept.  Yes, I know, Bambi was not trying to be biblical, but I think that many Christians have adopted this a value to strive for and live by, and it’s just not entirely accurate.  Scripture, on the other hand, says,


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“Nice” is not always “Helpful.”  In fact, when people focus on saying “nice” things, they often end up saying lies.  There’s nothing good or holy about lies.

I have spent a lot of time bottling up things that I should have/needed to say, simply because they weren’t “nice.”  And it’s always caused me a lot of frustration and pain.  However, on the contrary, I have also spent a lot of time using mean words.  Cruel words.  Hurtful and harmful words.  That is also not good or holy.  The temptation when trying to fix a problem in our lives is for us to swing from one extreme to another, and that is rarely (if ever) a good solution.

Our society uses funny words.  And the words that people use these days are not only powerful in their meanings and implications, they are dangerous and taken out of context.  And it breaks my heart to see people use their words so irresponsibly.  I, as a devout Catholic, have felt the sting of words such as “homophobic,” “intolerant,” “hateful,” “stupid,” “ignorant,” “old-fashioned,” “irrelevant,” or “evil.”  They throw out the prefix "pro" or "anti" like it's going out of style (but, on the contrary, it is VERY stylish).  People have been making claims that my kind (as in, devout Catholics) are “anti” love, which, in turn, makes them “pro” love?  It’s all very confusing and convoluted.

For several months now, I sat back and just watched people’s reactions to gay marriage, to Planned Parenthood scandals, to lion’s being killed, to confederate flags being flown, to people being martyred for their faith in other parts of the world.  I have been too scared, confused, and careful to respond to these things.  People have had such violent and aggressive reactions to these things, and they use their words, often to express holy ideas, but in unholy ways. 

For the next several weeks, I am going to be addressing some of these issues, both to address the ideas that are, in fact, truthful, but also to help Catholics do a better job of using their words to be holy.

Remember, Jesus is the word of God.  Words are powerful.  Use your words to glorify God, to live love, to be humble and to bless others.  Sometimes those things aren’t nice (although sometimes they are), but they are NEVER mean.


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Saturday, May 16, 2015

Giving Thanks



You never know.

I have problems sometimes, feeling sorry for myself.  It’s true.  If you read my blog regularly (especially recently), you’ve probably picked up on this sad truth.

The problem that I have is that I have done and frequently do things for people that they never know about.  My actions go unnoticed, and though I don’t do those things for attention, I still manage to get hurt.  In fact, sometimes I’d be down-right horrified if some people found out about some of the things that I’ve done for them without their knowledge.  Yet, resentment still seeps its way into my life.

Resentment is ugly on every person who wears it.

I am not alone.  What have others done for me that has gone unnoticed?  Unappreciated?  Unloved?  I obviously have no way of guessing this, since they are actions that have been kept hidden from me. 

How many things has God given me that I haven’t appreciated?   Or seen?  I could not list the things.  I have heard people ask the question, “What if you woke up today with only the things you thanked God for yesterday?”

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It’s a powerful question.  It really puts into perspective how much more I need to give thanks go God!

Now, I know it’s kind of my “thing” to question sayings and clichés that people say a lot, and so I don’t want you to think that I am saying that this idea is wrong or bad.  But it’s impossible.  God gives us so much, and we have NO WAY to properly thank Him for all of it.  But that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t try. We should simply acknowledge, as we do, that our thanks are insufficient and inadequate.  He knows that to be true.  He doesn’t need our thanks to be perfect.  He needs them to be sincere.  And that, friends, IS itself perfect thanksgiving.

The good news is the God does not feel resentment.  He loves us, even when we can’t, don’t or won’t properly thank Him.  When you start to feel resentment for your actions that go unseen, remember that God sees them, and that He has paid you with blessings you did not earn.  And give Him thanks.



Tuesday, May 12, 2015

It's about Compassion, Not Advice (a rant)


I don't want your stinking advice!

I recently learned that I have a mold problem in my house. Every time I tell someone about it, this is what happens:

Me: I have mold.
Them: You know what you should do...?

Yes! I know what I should do!!!! Goodness gracious, how stupid do you think that I am??? Am I really so dumb that I don't know I should call my insurance? All of the advice that people give me is stuff that I already know. And it's really insulting, frustrating, and, well, I hate everything about it.

This is when it is really difficult to be single. I have nobody to live through this with me. I have a lot of people who are looking into the situation, without knowing the intimate details of my finances, telling me that my finances are going to be ok. They don't know how much I sacrifice in order to live a financially responsible life. How I don't have any fun because I can't afford it. I know, I could give up my $8/month Netflix like one friend suggested (like saving $8/month is going to solve all of my problems). I don't need advice. I need a friend.

My life is boring. I am boring. And I am so afraid that this situation has DOOMED me to stay that way forever. I feel like my life is over.

The word compassion means "to suffer with." The problem with advice-givers is that they don't want to suffer with you, they want to fix you. But there is a lot of emotional stuff that goes along with this. It's bigger than a money problem. It's beyond their ability to fix.

What I need is a teeny tiny bit of compassion. I need someone to try to put themselves in my shoes. I need someone to say, "that sounds really hard," "how do you feel about this?" or even, "I love you."

I wonder why we are so quick to jump to giving advice. Advice is only helpful if it's helpful. People want to give advice and have the person hearing the advice just take it, no questions asked. The priority becomes for them to be right, rather than helping a friend.

See, I'm already scared enough right now. I'm already frustrated. I'm already sad and grieving over a life that I fear is being taken away from me because of this situation. I am already feeling regret over buying this house that I thought was a "good investment." Please don't insult me with your "advice." Please don't be pushy and force me into action when I'm not ready for that yet. Please don't stop listening to me when I say that I'd like to sell my house (to which you'll reply, "but it's a good investment." Really? Is it now? When I have a stress-induced heart attack and die at the age of 40, alone, sad, and bored with my life, are you REALLY going to get up at my funeral and say that this was a good investment? That it was worth the stress it caused me, that killed me? I don't think so. It isn't worth my life).

Sometimes, when something happens, you need to take a moment and just sit with it. To gather your strength so that you can fight the battle at hand. Maybe this isn't an actual life-or-death situation, but in some aspects it is. I really do feel like any chance I had for a social life is now gone. Eliminated entirely from my life. I am afraid that this means that I will never date, and therefore never marry. It impacts so many parts of my life. Let me take a moment. Let me be still. Be still, but not alone. Be still with me. Don't boss me around. Don't tell me what to do. Just be my friend. Have compassion.

Jesus was perfect at having compassion. He came to Earth as a human and He definitely suffered with (and for) us. He loved us like that. Let us stop giving advice right away, and start loving.

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